"This morning, I killed my own child."
The statement is unfathomable to us — the lucky ones who never have experienced postpartum depression.
While Shwe Htoo, 22, of St. Paul, had not been diagnosed with this form of mental illness when she spoke these words, I can't imagine that her actions were the result of anything else.
So, to the haters suggesting on social media that Htoo was a "piece of crap" mother who should have killed herself, I hold out hope that you will stay with me here, and learn something. Because you just never know when someone you love might face the same formidable — but treatable — mental health challenge.
Postpartum depression is not the short-lived "baby blues" that as many as 80 percent of new mothers experience within the first few weeks of giving birth. For that, treatment is not necessary, but emotional support and extra hands to allow Mom to sleep are exceedingly welcome.
Postpartum depression is more serious and long-lasting, affecting one in five new mothers and one in 10 new fathers. Symptoms include feeling overwhelmed, irritable and guilty, the latter due perhaps to a lack of interest in the baby and difficulty experiencing pleasure or joy.
In rare cases, a parent plunges into postpartum psychosis, which can lead to suicidal thoughts or bizarre beliefs about harming the baby. FBI data show that, on average, 450 children are killed annually by their parents. Mothers are most likely to kill newborns, and to do so on impulse. They tend to be younger themselves, most commonly ages 20 to 22.
Htoo turned 22 in August.