Azalina Eusope cries every day. "But the food comforts me," said the 41-year-old chef and owner of Azalina's, a Malaysian restaurant business in San Francisco.
"Ten years ago, my business started off in a survivor mode," Eusope said. "I was selling food under a tent at the farmers market. As a newly single mother, I needed income. I prepared the food, and at 4 o'clock in the morning, with my kids sleeping in the car, brought it to the farmers market and set up."
Fast-forward to March 15, when the coronavirus quarantines hit. "Now I'm back in survival mode," she said.
Restaurants have been one of the hardest-hit businesses. Independents, like Azalina's, "will bear the brunt of the closures, both because of attributes that make most independents more vulnerable in this pandemic (minimal off-premise presence, limited digital capabilities, low emphasis on value-based menu items) and because of their unfavorable economics (thin margins and poor access to capital)," according to a report by McKinsey & Co.
Eusope is a fifth-generation street vendor. She grew up on Penang Island off the coast of Malaysia and moved to San Francisco with her then-husband in 2001. "I was so far from my family, and I didn't speak English very well," she said.
She turned to her childhood mamak cuisine, a style from Muslim Indians, for solace. After she was divorced, "I was thinking, how am I going to survive here in the United States with no savings and no financial stability," she said. "I was a stay-at-home mom. I thought about the food I grew up watching my mother, my father and my grandmother make, and I kept making it for me and the kids."
Eusope's footprint has grown steadily to include a food-hall kiosk, retail grocery sales and a catering business. Last year, she opened Mahila, a 2,100-square-foot full-service restaurant. She has 70 employees. Construction is underway for three more restaurants.
Eusope's biggest concern is her employees, whom she did not lay off. "I need them. I can't betray them. In the long run, they will be there for me."