Around 1967, my parents, sister and I had ventured from Manhattan to New Jersey on a summer day to join my mother's friend day at the beach. She was taking us to one her family used to frequent.
But no sooner had she pulled into the entrance lot and rolled down the window than the male attendant turned the car away, saying the beach was full.
Except we could see clearly that it wasn't.
Our host politely noted the empty parking spaces, but the attendant was firm, saying we'd find space at a different beach on the other side. On reaching there, we understood what he really meant: We'd find only brown- and black-skinned people there, like ourselves.
In middle school then, I remember how mortified our African American host had been for unknowingly bringing us into that hostile situation, and how my shocked parents tried to make her feel better. But by then the day was shot, the sting of racism overpowering the scents of the ocean, the grills and the lure of the waves.
Our parents had experienced racial prejudice in British-occupied India before independence in 1947. Then they'd built careers at the United Nations in New York, promoting global human rights and economic development. But that didn't prevent their bumping up against racism on their 1952 honeymoon in Bermuda. They were turned away from the hotel they'd booked, and every other hotel they tried.
My sister and I had been championing the civil rights movement, but most of what we knew was from positions of relative privilege, in an enclave of like-minded idealists. Sure, once in a while you'd bump up against a microaggression — like the woman down the hall in our apartment building who yelled at us for cooking Indian food because she couldn't stand the smell of it.
But the beach incident was different. It was a public place in 1960s New Jersey where we had every right to be, but were blocked from going. I wondered at the time if it was us as much as our host the gatekeeper was so intent on keeping out. Or if, in the company of white people, we might have been given a pass. There weren't many Indians in America at the time, not enough to pose a threat to the country's demographic mix. And the ones we knew mostly stuck to each other. We were still foreigners, who intermingled.