Jacki Gemelos will wake up in the middle of the night with the feeling of butterflies in her stomach, maybe a little clutch of fear.
What if it doesn't happen?
What if the dream of playing in the WNBA, one she's had since she was seven, doesn't come true? What if all the injuries have taken their toll? What if all the rehab and all the pain that went with it doesn't pay off?
She shook her head, as if to dispel such thoughts. Maybe that day will come, perhaps before she's ready for it. But for now there is no room, no time. Gemelos, a guard vying for a roster spot during Lynx training camp, is too invested in her WNBA dream to give up now.
"I can't see myself walking away," she said. "Not yet. Not until I get a chance."
Gemelos is a case study in perseverance. Only 24, she already has undergone five reconstructive knee surgeries, three on her left knee, two on her right, all for the anterior cruciate ligament. Gemelos reels them off with little emotion, sharing the details of injuries that ended some seasons, prevented others.
She was introduced to the game by her dad, Steve, who played in college and in Europe. At St. Mary's High School in Stockton, Calif., her skills were so prodigious she was compared to Pete Maravich — which she loved because he had been her dad's favorite player.
At 15, Gemelos became the youngest player to commit to UConn before opting to stay closer to home at USC. People already were saying she was good enough to jump right to the WNBA when Gemelos was a high school senior in 2006. She was averaging 39.2 points, 8.9 assists, 6.5 rebounds and 2.7 steals when, during a playoff game, she tore the ACL in her right knee, ending her high school career.