Ryan Bartlett sits in the coaches' office, looking out at the now-empty weight room at White Bear Lake High School's south campus. He's been in this office nearly every day over the spring and summer, seemingly no different from football coaches across the state, preparing for the upcoming season.
Things are different, however. Barely six months ago, Bartlett, 34, wasn't sure he'd see the start of his seventh season as White Bear Lake head coach.
A fall and winter of feeling out of sorts, with a nagging cough, shortness of breath and recurring lightheadedness, required repeated trips to the doctor's office.
The first two trips gave no answers. It was on his third examination, scheduled after feeling a lump in his chest, that a CT scan was ordered. A mass, 9 centimeters across, was found in his chest. Spots were detected on his lymph nodes, spleen, liver and stomach.
Cancer.
"That first night, I thought I had something beyond repair," Bartlett recalled. "I was just so scared.
Suddenly, his tidy life, with a wife, three young sons and a promising career as a football coach and physical education teacher, got messy. Time, which always seemed so plentiful, was no longer such a sure thing. Things taken for granted became priorities, others once deemed essential became a little less so.
"Instantly, you think about what's important," he recalled. "Football had always been really important. I used to think about football every hour of the day. But after hearing that, all I wanted to do was go home, hang out with my wife and kids and order pizza on Friday night. I didn't think about football for a long time."