You picture each loss making his windowless office a little darker, the air a little stuffier, the gloom a little thicker. You imagine Ron Gardenhire's inner sanctum as a bunker of blame, with each day's failure making the diamond-mine pressure just a little more crushing. You figure his home park is more Target than Field these days, his popularity evaporating along with his job security as his shoulders bear the weight of mistakes not his own.
You might think living through 195 losses in 18 months is enough to make Ron Gardenhire swear off the Twins, managing, maybe even baseball. But you would be wrong.
"You mean, I'd rather be doing something else?" Gardenhire rephrases, as he considers a question about his mental and emotional durability in the wake of the worst back-to-back years he's ever experienced as a player or manager. "No, I love what I'm doing — win, lose or draw."
Well, it's a shame there aren't more draws, then. But Gardenhire enters his 12th season in charge of the Twins with an upbeat attitude about his team, his legacy and his future. He appears earnest about making others believe it, too. The Twins as a group, in fact, seem to reject the low expectations that devolve from two catastrophic seasons, and don't share the pessimism about 2013 that has become consensus around the league and around the state.
"That's what's exciting about this game — you never know. You may think you have it figured out, but stuff happens every year that you never see coming," Gardenhire says. "Going into a ballgame, when you feel like you have a chance to win a game, that's fun. During the game, competing is fun. But losing is not fun."
No, fun is probably not the right word, not for those in charge, not for those whose job performance can be assessed, out to three places beyond the decimal point, in the standings each day. Yet for the vast majority of Minnesotans, to whom the Twins are more pastime than vocation, even a 30-games-below-.500 season is not wholly without its charms.
"It's about the experience, and the shared connection with our fans," said team President Dave St. Peter, and sure, he's got to say those things when the pennant race is being waged well out of earshot of the Twins. But that doesn't mean he's wrong when he notes that "there are a lot of reasons to come out to the ballpark, or watch on TV. Target Field itself is one of the great venues in sports on a summer night. The All-Star Game coming [in 2014], the young kids starting to arrive — everybody would hope the record shows improvement this year, but we think, in a lot of ways, this is a good time to be a Twins fan."
That notion isn't a popular one, acknowledges General Manager Terry Ryan, but he agrees with it. The Twins lost 96 games last year, but: "We had some very good things happen, I keep saying that," Ryan said. "It wasn't a total disappointment. [Justin] Morneau and [Joe] Mauer being healthy, [Josh] Willingham having a good year, developing [Scott] Diamond into an effective starter. Unfortunately, it all sort of gets lost with all the losses. But we're not starting from scratch here."