Aaron Thompson is insane. He freely admits this.
"Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results," the lefthander reasons. "And I'm telling you, that's what I do."
Thompson needs, and expects, different results because he doesn't feel the quality of his pitches are any different than what they were in April, when he was a revelation, giving up four hits in his first 11 innings. "It's maybe better," Thompson said of his velocity and movement.
June hasn't been better, though; after giving up four runs without retiring a Cubs batter on Sunday, his ERA for the month is 14.54. He has faced 23 batters in June and retired 13.
The reason, Thompson figures, might simply be the randomness of baseball. He's made minor adjustments, but doesn't feel his awful June is necessarily because of how he's pitching. "Everyone focus on results, but we have to stay aware of the process, and that hasn't changed," he said. He gave up two runs, for instance, when Kyle Schwarber, fooled by a breaking pitch Sunday, reached out and poked it over the shortstop's head. "If that's a double play, we're not having this conversation," he said.
Thompson's pitching coach agrees, to a point. "Mechanically, he's the same. Mentally …" Neil Allen said, shrugging at the thought. "I think he's trying to do too much right now. 'Trust your stuff, the same way you did at the beginning.' "
Allen said he believes Thompson may be overthinking when he's on the mound. "Pointing at his head, the coach said, "You give up a few hits and you start getting people swimming around up there and they start telling you things. It's his confidence, that's all I care about. Mechanically, he's fine, but I think people are starting to swim around in there."
Manager Paul Molitor was more blunt, saying: "He's playing a lot of mind games with himself right now, questioning throwing one pitch. Fastball, slider — whatever one he picks seems to be the wrong one. They're not always bad pitches, they're just finding ways to get hits."