Shwe Htoo held her composure for as long as possible Thursday morning as she recounted how she fed milk laced with sugar, sleep medication and bedbug poison to her 1-month-old son one night and then drank the mixture herself.
She testified in Ramsey County District Court that when they both woke up the next morning — Nov. 18, 2015 — she was desperate to end both of their lives: "I covered his nose with my hand and he couldn't breathe, and then — "
Htoo buried her face in both hands, leaned forward in her chair and broke into sobs.
"And then he just died," she testified.
The admission came during a hearing at which Htoo, 23, pleaded guilty to one count of first-degree manslaughter for killing Michael Kyaw Htoo.
Court records indicate that at the time, she was suffering from postpartum depression, which can overwhelm new mothers with depression, anxiety and mournful feelings.
The original count of second-degree murder will be dismissed as part of her plea deal. Htoo also agreed to a prison term of between 12½ years and 15 years, an upward departure from state guidelines that would have otherwise called for about six to 8½ years.
The higher sentence is based on aggravating factors: The baby was especially vulnerable because of his age, Htoo acted with "particular cruelty" and her actions were carried out with a "high degree of planning, preparation and concealment."