One year later, migrants who survived wreck off Greece seek justice and struggle to cope with life

ATHENS, Greece — Desperate hands clutched at Ali Elwan's arms, legs and neck, and screams misted his ears, as he spat out saltwater and fought for three hours to keep afloat in the night, dozens of miles from land.

Although a poor swimmer, he lived — one of just 104 survivors from the wreck of a dilapidated old metal fishing boat smuggling up to 750 migrants from North Africa to Europe.

''I was so, so lucky,'' the 30-year-old Egyptian told The Associated Press in Athens, Greece, where he works odd jobs while he waits to hear the outcome of his asylum application. ''I have two babies. Maybe I stay(ed) in this life for them.''

Thousands have died in Mediterranean Sea shipwrecks in recent years as migrants from the Middle East, Asia and Africa seek a better life in the affluent European Union.

But the sinking of the Adriana a year ago Friday in international waters 75 kilometers (45 miles) off Pylos in southern Greece was one of the worst. Only 82 bodies were recovered, so that hundreds of families still lack even the grim certitude that their relatives are dead.

Elwan, a cook whose wife and children are in Cairo, says he still gets phone calls from Egypt from mothers, brothers and wives of the missing.

''We (left) home to get best life for family and until now (their families) know nothing about them,'' he said.

Migrant charities and human rights groups have strongly criticized Greece's handling of the sinking and its aftermath.

Human Rights Watch and Amnesty International said Thursday ''a credible process for accountability'' was needed.

''It is unconscionable that one year since this horrific tragedy, the investigation into the potential liability of (Greece's) Coast Guard has barely progressed,'' HRW official Judith Sunderland said in the groups' joint statement.

The Greek coast guard, migration ministry and other officials did not respond to AP requests for comment ahead of the anniversary.

Authorities had a coast guard boat on the scene and merchant ships in the vicinity during the trawler's last hours. They blame smugglers who crammed hundreds of people into an unseaworthy vessel — most in an airless hold designed to store a catch of fish — for a nightmare voyage from Libya to Italy.

Elwan — who says he was on deck with a clear view of what happened — and other survivors say the lurching followed a botched coast guard attempt to tow the trawler. He claimed the coast guard hurriedly cut the towline when it became evident the Adriana would sink and drag their boat down with it.

''If you find the ship (at the bottom of the sea), you will find this rope'' still attached to it, he said.

But the logistics make such a feat nigh-on impossible, Greek authorities say, as the ship rests some 5 kilometers (more than 3 miles) down, at one of the Mediterranean's deepest points.

The coast guard has denied any towing attempt, and allegations that its vessel tried to shift the trawler into neighboring Italy's area of responsibility.

A naval court began investigating last June, but has released no information on its progress or findings.

Last month, a Greek court dropped charges against nine Egyptians accused of crewing the Adriana and causing the shipwreck. Without examining evidence for or against them, it determined that Greece lacked jurisdiction as the wreck occurred in international waters.

Effie Doussi, one of the Egyptians' defense lawyers, argued that the ruling was ''politically convenient'' for Greek authorities.

''It saved the Greek state from being exposed over how the coast guard acted, given their responsibility for rescue,'' she said.

Doussi said a full hearing would have included testimony from survivors and other witnesses, and let defense lawyers seek additional evidence from the coast guard, such as potential mobile phone data.

Zeeshan Sarwar, a 28-year-old Pakistani survivor, said he's still waiting for justice, ''but apparently there is nothing.''

Elwan, the Egyptian, said he can still only sleep for three or four hours a night.

''I remember every second that happened to me,'' he said. ''I can't forget anything because (I) lost friends in this ship.''

The journey that preceded the wreck was also horrendous.

Survivors said Pakistanis were confined in the hold and beaten by the crew if they tried to stir. But Arabic-speaking Egyptians and Syrians enjoyed the relative luxury of the deck. For many, that spelled the difference between life and death when the ship capsized.

''Our condition was very bad on the first day because it was the first time in our life that we were traveling on the sea,'' Sarwar said.

Elwan said he left for Europe secretly, telling his wife he would be away for months, working at an Egyptian Red Sea resort.

He's upset that he's still to be granted asylum, unlike many Syrian survivors who, he said, have moved on to western Europe.

''Only people from Egypt can't get papers,'' he said. ''I've been working for 10 months to send money for my family ... If someone says come and move rubbish, I will go and move this rubbish, no problem for me.''

If he gets residence papers, Elwan wants to work in Greece and bring his family over.

Otherwise, ''I will go to Italy, maybe Germany. I don't know.''