Summer, 1983. All the kids in my exurban Minneapolis neighborhood are crazy for "Return of the Jedi." We spend the summer hooting like Ewoks and battling with our lightsaber branches.
One day we gather in a friend's backyard to role-play our favorite "Star Wars" characters.
My older sister Stacy and I are the token girls in this clique. Just 11 years old, Stacy is doe-eyed and beautiful, already attracting male attention with her cascading brunette locks. She's also an expert with the hairbrush. She can easily twist her hair into Princess Leia buns. Or achieve the more complicated rope braid from "Return of the Jedi."
I don't even argue. Stacy gets to be Leia. Obviously. Of course.
"There's another woman in the movie," offers my sister. "You can be Mon Mothma."
Huh? I hardly remember another female character. Turns out, she appeared in "Return of the Jedi" for all of two minutes.
We are gender essentialists, my friends and me. Even though I'm a 7-year-old tomboy with a tricked-out BMX bicycle tossed nearby, I have zero interest in playing one of the many male "Star Wars" characters. Someone suggests C-3PO, and I'm quick to decline. R2-D2? I need to stop and think about that one. But, in the end, a "bubbly girl" (as my parents call me) isn't interested in playing a mechanical droid.
Here's the other thing about the 7-year-old me, the thing that marks me as special. In contrast with my sister, my hair is a perfect globe of light-brown frizz. My curly hair is the first thing people notice about me. Wherever I go in my predominantly white, Christian community, they constantly inquire about my ethnic heritage. They constantly ask whether they can touch my curious hair.