When she was a teenager battling cancer, Erika Rucks said she felt invincible. But the 40-year-old's more recent diagnosis of incurable breast cancer came with an acute sense of fragility.
"I know what I can lose versus back when I was 15," she said, reflecting on her Hodgkin's lymphoma diagnosis right before Christmas of 1994.
"I have a husband and I have three young children and I know exactly what I have to lose."
Rucks was diagnosed with stage 4, metastatic breast cancer in the summer of 2019. She started off 2020 on somewhat of a high note, however, with a PET scan in January showing the cancer was dormant following six months of treatment.
"Getting a terminal prognosis has changed my perspective," she said. "It has made me realize that I have a limited amount of days on this planet. I need to go out there and I need to go and see the world and need to have those experiences now before it's too late."
So her co-workers at Minnesota Masonic Children's Hospital — where Rucks has worked for nearly 17 years as an oncology nurse — held a bake sale, raising enough money to pay for the entire family to go to Disney World for a week in late February. Rucks, her husband, Chris, and daughters, ages 10, 7 and 4, left their Andover home for a much-needed vacation rather than wait around until spring break to fly south.
Then the pandemic hit.
"It was just a matter of pure luck because I had booked that trip … well before we knew anything about coronavirus," she said. "I don't want to put off any more memory-making events."