Nina Robertson wishes she could talk to her mom, who would know what to do.
After her brother, Chad Robertson, was fatally shot in the back by an Amtrak police officer in Chicago in February, it was Candice Hackett's strength that kept Nina and her siblings from slipping further into despair.
And so it was profoundly cruel that less than two months after Chad's death, Hackett, 45, would also fall victim to gun violence — this time in north Minneapolis — sending the vulnerable family into another tailspin of grief and anguish.
"It kind of felt unreal," said Nina, 28. "We were in a denial stage of grief and I think we didn't fully deal with what had happened and what was going on with Chad."
Now, as the family copes with the fallout of a second unexpected loss, they say they must stick together to see justice in both slayings. Robertson's death drew widespread community outrage, and LaRoyce Tankson, the officer who pulled the trigger, was charged with first-degree murder and awaits trial in Chicago. Meanwhile, investigators continue the search for Hackett's killer.
Amid the chaos, Nina said she has no time to grieve. Her brothers and sisters need her. She described trying to "create a space where these kids can have some sense of normalcy," while hiding her own sorrow.
"These kids literally do exactly what they see me do," she said. "I've been having to wear a damn mask around here."
But tears flow down her face when she recalls the day Chad, 25, was traveling Feb. 8 from a relative's funeral in Memphis, when his bus made a scheduled stop in downtown Chicago.