With his daughter missing for more than a month, the only thing that suppresses Jay Steger's agonizing grief and discouragement is his unyielding determination to find her.
Trudging through deep snow Saturday morning on Maplewood's Keller Lake, just 2 miles from where Kira Trevino lived with her husband — now charged with her murder — her father scoured brush and shoreline, desperately searching for any sign of her.
Just like he's done every weekend.
"I gotta be here; this is my girl," he said. "I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I didn't try."
More than 100 volunteers turned out for the morning search, the largest one so far and one of five just this weekend. Steger stopped searching only to hug or thank volunteers, most of them strangers from across the Twin Cities and the state who've been moved by a case that weeks later has many unanswered questions.
The searches have been more than just cathartic for the family. Last week, at Keller Lake they uncovered two of the largest pieces of evidence in the case. There, they stumbled across a plastic bag with Trevino's DNA on a bloody pillow, sports bra, shirt and sponge.
"I felt sick," said Trevino's sister, Keri Anne Steger, 29.
But the bag, along with the family's discovery of a hole in the ice roughly chipped large enough to fit a body, reinvigorated search efforts, giving the family hope that closure is in sight.