Like a wanted man turning himself in at a police station, Trevor May swallowed hard, walked into Paul Molitor's office, and confessed.
My back hurts again, May told his manager. It's affecting the way I pitch again. I need to go on the disabled list again. Yes, again.
"It wasn't easy. Yesterday was a tough day, because I knew what it meant," the 26-year-old Twins righthander said. "I hate being out. Hate it, hate it."
But he learned a valuable lesson in June, when his back spasms first flared up. Pitching in pain, hoping the problem goes away, keeping quiet about his condition — none of those things help the team, or himself. His competitive instinct told him to gut it out, May said; his brain told him, honesty is the best policy.
"We're glad he came forward," Molitor said Wednesday, shortly after May was placed on the disabled list, his roster spot and bullpen spot inherited by J.T. Chargois, called up from Class AAA Rochester. "We sat down and talked for quite a while about where he's at. Obviously we affirmed that it's the right thing to make sure we took care of this thing, and not be out there trying to pitch and jeopardize your future."
That future, though, feels a lot less certain than it did in spring training, May said. This was going to be his big breakthrough season, the year he established himself as a setup man at least, and perhaps a future closer. May was confident he was pitching better than ever.
Instead, changes to his routine caused him to unconsciously lengthen his stride and put more torque on his back. As his mechanics worsened, so did the back pain, and his self-defeating solution was to throw harder, add more pressure and make matters worse.
"There are days when I can't put a ball anywhere close where I need it to be, and it's usually because of the back," said May, who blames his 10 wild pitches, which lead all AL relievers, largely on his physical problems. "No matter how much I want it to be throwing the ball where I want, my mechanics can't hold up as long as my back is this way."