I want to honor my friend, John. He acts all tough and vulgar like nothing bothers him, but I've seen him cry. In Iraq, it's all just endless brown, washed out. Sand, bricks, the sky so pale it's barely blue. The horizon goes on forever, no lines, no color. So when we came home, the green made him cry. The color you take for granted. He looks up at trees now still and I catch him bawling his eyes out.
After hearing this monologue from a fellow cast member during rehearsal for "The Veterans Play Project," Matt Delaney had to walk away for a minute, a thumb and forefinger pressed against the inner edges of his eyes.
Delaney, 46, of Coon Rapids, served 17 years in the Army, including a two-year tour in Iraq doing long-range surveillance.
"That's exactly what it's like," he said. "Brown and hot. The only thing missing is the constant lingering smell over everything. No one had to tell you for you to know it was the smell of death. You never took a big deep breath over there like you do back home."
The play, which premieres Friday at Fort Snelling's Base Camp, was created by the troupe Footprints Collective and is being presented by Mixed Blood Theatre.
The stories being told are those of real military personnel, and two-thirds of the 20-member cast served in the military. Before writing a script and holding auditions, director Leah Cooper and her cohorts conducted several story circles with more than 100 veterans of conflicts from Vietnam and the first Gulf War to the more recent wars in Iraq and Afghanistan.
This group, which one vet in the cast joked has become its own platoon, is on a mission that is physically safer than any of those locales. But it has led them into some risky emotional territory. There are extra challenges for the theater pros as well, not least among them working with amateur actors who understandably bring a higher-than-average share of baggage along.
"We love the baggage," Cooper said. "That's why we invited them. What they lack in theater training they more than make up for in authentic world experience, profound emotion and deep perspective."