A long time ago, I walked into a big creepy barn to meet the brother of one of the Oklahoma City bombers.
We had a nice talk, he and I, about militias and fertilizer bombs and was I sure I wasn't FBI? He liked to punctuate sentences by shaping his thumb and forefinger into a gun, aiming at my forehead and pulling the trigger. Pow.
A lot of days feel like that now.
I wish I could tell you I walked out of that barn with some insight into how monsters get made.
The kind who detonate a truck bomb in front of a federal office building and its day care center.
Or mail pipe bombs stuffed with broken glass to politicians and newsrooms.
Or toss bombs through mosque windows.
Or gun down black shoppers in a supermarket because the black church next door locked its doors.