Chalkboard captures the mood outside the governor's residence

Amoreina Espinosa wandered up shyly to an 8-foot chalkboard set atop the pavement on Summit Avenue, a quiet, somber place just outside the crowd of peaceful demonstrators gathered at the governor's residence.

A small piece of white chalk in her delicate hand, she searched for a clear spot amid the hundreds of colorful messages already scrawled there. Finally, she found a tiny space near the middle of the board.

Then, ever so carefully, she etched:

"#All lives matter."

Just 14, Espinosa had navigated with a friend on a city bus to the grand, leafy avenue Friday, high-tops on her feet and baseball cap in hand. It was her first time at any sort of demonstration.

She'd seen the stories about police shootings of black men across the country, she said, but after Philando Castile, a school cafeteria worker from St. Paul, wound up dead in a traffic stop just miles from her home, the whole issue felt different.

"I never thought it could happen here," she said, almost in a whisper, her deep brown eyes fixed in a stern gaze of disbelief. She paused. "But it has. To me, that's America today. … I'm feeling lost."

"Why?" read one message in thick blue letters on the chalkboard.

"Prosecute the police," read another.

"I am so sorry that we're here."

Paulina Larenas-Bajwa walked up to the board, chalk in hand, and stood frozen as a man nearby used a loudspeaker to implore a couple hundred supporters to "get to know somebody that doesn't look like you."

After a while, she backed away from the board, at a loss for words. "I thought it was going to be easy because I have so much to say."

"I'm foreign. This guy was not foreign," she said of Castile. "It's horribly sad to realize that because of my color, I am safe."

Minutes later, Pedro Pinner decided there simply wasn't enough room on the board to scrawl what he wanted to say. He grabbed blue chalk and crouched to the road, writing in large letters that Castile's killing was "a hate crime with a badge."

Pinner and his wife moved to Minnesota from Mexico 20 years ago and built careers helping others in social work and legal aid, he said.

"I could be targeted because I am a little bit darker, or because I have an accent," he said. "Something is happening in our society."

As the chalkboard filled up, Lisa Ross carried a bouquet of pink hydrangeas and a black balloon. Last fall, she had watched from afar the protests over Jamar Clark's death at the hands of Minneapolis police. She had too many questions about that case to join in.

"I've benefited from profiling all my life," she said. "I wasn't going to be pulled over in my Subaru … that [thought] makes me uncomfortable."

Minnesota, she said, can be a catalyst for national change.

"I'm here for the long run with this one," she said before placing the flowers and tying the balloon to a metal fence.

Sarah Tay said she wasn't surprised that Castile's death drew some people to act for the first time. After a long day of teaching preschool children to respect one another, the 31-year-old stood before the chalkboard, finding a spot for her initials and a small heart.

She stood back and sighed, wondering how much will really change: "I'm African-American and this is an everyday struggle for us."

"I'm sad. I'm heartbroken," she said. And yet: "I'm really angry, though, at the end of the day. There are people that still really don't get it."

Sitting on the porch of the Summit Avenue house he restored, Gary Hietala, 72, watched the sea of people standing on his street. Some had scrawled nasty messages on his property the night before, assuming that the people who lived on the stately avenue were wealthy and unsupportive.

His wife has worked on social justice issues — hunger, housing and education — her entire life, he said. They feel that black people in America "have really been mistreated," he said. On the other hand, after a sniper, Micah Johnson, killed so many police officers in Dallas, Hietala said he couldn't help but feel the rhetoric had gone too far.

"I don't believe that [police] set out in the morning to find a black person to go out and shoot," he said of Castile. "It's a sad deal. I don't know what would be said now if [the officer] had looked in the window and got shot. … There doesn't seem to be an answer to it."

As dusk fell and music blared, demonstrators spread more chalk messages onto the pavement: "Omaha here," one woman wrote after driving more than five hours just to join the demonstration.

"Our police officers are trained and well-disciplined enough to understand the source of it is anger and frustration and it's not personal," he said. "They don't know us."

Others were thankful. As he spoke, a woman yelled her thanks to officers, grateful that they were keeping the protesters safe.

As the evening wore on, the chalkboard covered in messages, Mary Richardson photographed it, then dumped water from a plastic bottle onto a cloth and slowly started washing the board clean. Richardson, a member of the Million Artist Movement, which set up the board, said organizers were erasing it periodically to give everyone space to vent.

"There's a lot of people out here," she said. "A lot of thoughts they want to get down."

Pam Louwagie • 612-673-7102