MINNEAPOLIS — Jossy Miller said she was managing her eating disorder well until the pandemic started.
"Losing weight and food was my coping skill for handling everything going on in the world and everything going on in my life," the third-year University of Minnesota student said. Miller has been on leave from the university since October.
She said the pandemic made it easier to get away with not eating, as she was not seeing her friends and family as frequently. By the time she moved to residential treatment and left her roommates — who she was initially close with — she was not speaking with them, largely because of her eating disorder.
A majority of the people she has talked to at Melrose Center, an eating disorder treatment clinic in the Twin Cities area, attribute the worsening of their eating disorders to the pandemic, she said.
There has been an increase in disordered eating among those with a history and those with active eating disorders during the pandemic, according to Psychiatry and Behavioral Sciences professor Dr. Emily Pisetsky. There are many intersections between food and social interactions; so if someone is avoiding food, they can end up isolating themselves, she said.
Eating disorders are described as "disorders of disconnect," said Tamara Pryor, EDCare executive director of clinical and research, in an email to the Minnesota Daily. Virtual classes alongside the added stress of the pandemic have created a greater sense of disconnect for students with eating disorders, she said.
EDCare, a program with multiple eating disorder treatment centers, has observed that the overwhelming navigation of new experiences in college can cause people to turn to food, or away from it, to temporarily distract from uncomfortable emotions, The Minnesota Daily reported.
While eating disorders can develop at any age, they develop with a greater frequency between the ages of 18 and 21, Pryor said in the email.
Quarantine diets became a widespread trend during the pandemic. This caused some people with eating disorders to personalize comments about weight gain as a result of the COVID-19 pandemic and start to worry that it is a problem for them, according to Melrose Clinical Director Dr. Heather Gallivan. When university students are struggling with an eating disorder, Boynton typically refers them to Melrose.
Anna Enfield, a fourth-year student, said she felt especially targeted when TikTok's algorithm tailored her suggested videos to consist primarily of titles like "how to lose that quarantine weight" and "how to stay healthy after the holidays." She said she gets those types of suggested videos less now and attempts to block them out when they appear on her feed.
Enfield said her eating disorder got serious last spring. Attempting to balance eight hours of daily treatment with school work affected her grades; thinking about food takes up a lot of brain space, and it is easy to rationalize that a grade is not as important as looking a certain way, so she focused on not eating, she said.
Those with eating disorders often report spending 80%-90% of their day thinking about food or their body, Gallivan said.
For inpatient programs such as those at Melrose, patients who are in college are advised to put all of their focus into their treatment. When Miller started inpatient treatment, she dropped her classes. She plans to start taking classes again this summer.
Melrose counselors suggested Enfield eat meals over Zoom with family and friends to help her engage in social eating.
"It doesn't help — it didn't help me at least. I know a lot of people it did help," she said. "But for me, it just turned into me watching myself eat and being very critical of that."
With almost all mental health services and universities doing some — if not all — counseling or therapy sessions virtually, students can spend a lot of time staring at themselves in a little box on their screens. It is never a flattering light, Enfield said. However, because Zoom only shows faces, many people with eating disorders spend less time worrying about the public seeing their bodies every day, Pisetsky said.
As a provider, Gallivan said one drawback of virtual sessions is that she loses out on observations and nonverbal cues.
Lucy Murphy, a fourth-year student at the university, said she realized she was using the pandemic as an excuse to avoid getting groceries. She was referred to Melrose this past May after a doctor's visit to Boynton. The entirety of her eating disorder treatment has been taking place during the pandemic.
Murphy mentioned her eating disorder as a concern to a counselor at Boynton two years ago, but it was not seen as a prevalent enough concern at the time to refer her to outside help. Her eating disorder intensified during the pandemic, she said.
For out-of-state students like Murphy, roommates or partners can provide a social environment and support system. Those who are not close with their roommates, or do not have any, might not participate in social eating or other social activities. This can allow eating disorders to fly under the radar, Pisetsky said.
As a nursing student, Murphy has a busy schedule, which made managing an eating schedule more difficult.
"This past semester came in like a freight train. Going through an eating disorder during that time was really, really difficult because my schoolwork definitely suffered," she said. "I wasn't eating enough, and there wasn't a ton of support in the program for it, except like, 'You just need to get over it and get back into the game.'"