Josh Harding could feel it. And he's pretty sure those around him could see it, too.
The Wild goalie was struggling. He was scared.
"You think about hockey, and you think about how your life is going to change," he said.
This, though, is looking back. And that's something Harding sounds loath to do. He was speaking to a few media members at midday Thursday after having taken to the Xcel Energy Center ice with some teammates for the first time in weeks. It was a small step, but a thrilling one; Harding arrived early, warmed up and waited. And then, getting on the ice?
"It's a big step for me," he said. "Hopefully it just keeps going the right way."
Harding was diagnosed last fall with multiple sclerosis. He and his doctors hoped proper treatment could contain it. But after his body didn't react well to medication, he was put on injured reserve Feb. 12, then started a weeks-long process trying to find the right treatment combination.
It was not easy.
"It's frustrating, more than anything," Harding said. The problem, he said, is that everybody dealing with the disease is different. There is no standard operating procedure.